Ennui vibes

Between my Unwanted Friend Ennui and I

It’s been a long long long time hot minute since my last blog post.  Someone actually asked if I was dead because I was not posting 😂. It’s a bit of dark humour but I appreciate it, it keeps me on my feet making sure I can’t just slack off anytime I want.

The time is almost 3 am, I am writing this because I can’t sleep.  Also because I have put it off long enough.

I am listening to ‘Take me Home Country Road by John Denver’ on repeat . There’s a particular line that resonates with me- “Take me home to the place I belong”. Probably because right down I don’t feel like I belong anywhere.

The Merriam Webster dictionary defines Ennui as

1.A feeling of weariness or dissatisfaction ;

2.A lack of spirit, enthusiasm, or interest

I have been having one of my episodes where I feel lost and out of place like I should be somewhere else.
Common place things make me depressed and stirs up this desire in me to be alone for long periods of time.

This time my chosen playlist has been sad slow country songs with the occasional Adele and Ed sheeran thrown in. I still smile, laugh even but inside it’s like something is squeezing the life out of me.

Now I can’t remember why I started writing.  But I just knew I wanted to put down this feeling somewhere and since this blog is my diary /soapbox /everything else, I might as well put it here.

Yes I am going to get over it but I want to know if anyone feels or has every felt like this and what they do or have done to feel better.

I just want to assure you guys that I don’t think of self harming or anything. I just want to know I am not alone.

Meyer-Briggs Test The Defender ISFJ

The Defender || My Meyer-Briggs Personality Test Results

This week I decided to take a Meyer-Briggs personality test from www.16personalities.com, just for kicks and I found out that my personality type is ISFJ( The Defender).

 

I am just going to give you a short excrepts of various facets of this personality type from the website and my thoughts on them.

” The ISFJ personality type is quite unique, as many of their qualities defy the definition of their individual traits. Though possessing the Feeling (F) trait, ISFJs have excellent analytical abilities; though Introverted (I), they have well-developed people skills and robust social relationships; and though they are a Judging (J) type, ISFJs are often receptive to change and new ideas. Combining the best of tradition and the desire to do good, ISFJs are found in lines of work with a sense of history behind them, such as medicine, academics and charitable social work.”

Usually I don’t believe in the personality test, zodiac sign mumbo-jumbo but when I saw medicine, academics and charitable social work I knew this had me written all over it.I am sure I am not the only one who finds themselves in that middle ground between introvert and extrovert

Strengths

Meyer-Briggs personality test Defender ISFJ strengths

 

1. Supportive

2. Reliable and Patient

3. Imaginative and Observant

4. Enthusiastic

5. Loyal and Hardworking

6. Good Practical skill
Yes yes yes and yes….. I am very familiar with these characters although the patience thing is not as much as I would love.

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Weakness

Meyer-Briggs Defender ISFJ Weakness

 

1. Humble and Shy

2. Take things too personally

3. Repress their Feelings

4. Overload themselves

5. Reluctant to change

6. Too altruistic

Also a big Yes here. I take things so personally I cry when I am angry. I am also very shy but social at the same time, but I prefer the former tho. Good books over parties anytime.

Relationships

Meyer-Briggs Defender ISFJ Relationships

 

“Relationships built on established familiarity are a warm prospect for ISFJs – they take dating seriously and only enter into relationships that have a real chance of lasting a lifetime.” ” If their partners aren’t willing or able to express this thanks, or worse still are openly critical of their ISFJ partners, they will find that, given time and pressure, all of those repressed emotions can burst forth in massive verbal attacks that all the future regret in the world won’t blunt.”
I have always been of the opinion that ‘dating for fun’ is the stupidest thing. If you are spending time and giving a part of yourself to somebody it should be because you want to possibly spend the rest of your life together. Some people say it’s too much pressure but I just can’t understand wasting months or years ‘just having fun’.

Friendship

Meyer-Briggs Defender ISFJ Friendships

 

“Given how generous ISFJs are with their warm praise and support, it’s not surprising that others enjoy their company enough to call them friends. The challenge is to be considered a friend back – people with the ISFJ personality type are shy and a little protective of themselves, but they also need to be able to connect on a deeper emotional level. It makes sense then that most of ISFJs’ friends are made not by random encounters on a wild night out, but through comfortable and consistent contact, as in class or in the workplace where they have the time to get to know each other little by little.” “ISFJs need a lot of positive feedback, and admitting this need certainly shows vulnerability, but if that vulnerability is well handled, it creates the deep bonds that ISFJ personalities look for.”

I have 5 people that I truly consider friends in this world,and I will go out of my way for. These people have become family to me, they are always on my mind. I met all of them in school, before I added the 4 from the band repj360( check out their website here), I had only 1 friend. And yes guys I love positive feedback, a lot of them you did good and treats yes I love treats

Parents

Meyer-Briggs Defender ISFJ Parenthood

 

“ISFJs’ warmth and care make parenting something that often comes naturally to them. Many people with this personality type feel like parenting is the task they were born for, taking no small pleasure in the sense of personal importance and responsibility they feel in ensuring that their children grow up to be healthy, confident and successful. At the same time, ISFJs are anything but arrogant, and will hardly take their natural skill in this department for granted.”

Did I mention I want to have 6 children, Dasall.

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Career Path

Meyer-Briggs Defender ISFJ Career path

 

“ISFJs are skilled at remembering things about others which makes them not only valuable assistants, but well-liked colleagues. People with the ISFJ personality type can always be counted on to remember a birthday, a graduation, or simply a frequent customers’ name, and that can make all the difference. Add to these amiable qualities ISFJs’ meticulousness, hard work and dedication, and it’s no surprise that their careers often progress smoothly, with few of the ups and downs that accompany more high-flying types.”

So this part is not really me, I don’t always remember people’s birthdays even my friends know I am bad at this. However I take offense if you forget mine.

Conclusion

” Yet ISFJs can be easily tripped up in areas where their kindness and practical approach are more of a liability than an asset. Whether it is finding (or keeping) a partner, learning to relax or improvise, reaching dazzling heights on the career ladder, or managing their workload, ISFJs need to put in a conscious effort to develop their weaker traits and additional skills.”

Other defenders include Halle Berry, Vin Diesel, Beyoncé, Queen Elizabeth ll, Kate Middleton, Anne Hathaway, Selena Gomez, Catelyn Stark(A Game of Thrones) , Samwise Gamgee(The Lord of the Rings) , Will Turner(Pirates of the Caribbean) , Dr Watson(Sherlock Holmes series) , Pam Beesley(The Office), Vito Corleone(The Godfather) Bree Van de Kamp(Desperate Housewives).

My dream is to revolutionize health care in Africa. Establish a charity dedicated to helping Nigerians get quality education, so I guess I am a defender.

I think everyone should head over to 16 personalities and take this test, it takes 12 minutes or less. Its not difficult just your typical agree or disagree questionnaire.

Let me know in the comments if you take your own test or you can tell me on my instagram @adaoraah.

Event|| FashionbyDaisy Pop up Sale

MY WEEKEND

So guys how was your weekend? Mine was great! I spent most of it buying clothes, we all know that’s the dream, yayy for any good sale.

Anyway, there has been a lot of buzz about the fashionbydaisy pop up sale and when I got wind of it, I told everyone about it. Items were going to retail between 500 to 2000 naira, which was almost too cheap to be true.

I woke up early on Sunday because I wanted to get to the sale first, I got there a few minutes after 12pm and I was surprised by two things.
1 There were already people who had finished shopping and were leaving.
2. The person who was leaving was a classmate from my primary school in Minna, Niger state, who I hadn’t seen in about 15 years.

However, I was more panicked for the first reason and after pleasantries I rushed in to start shopping. I was pleasantly surprised to see that all the pieces were actually being sold for the alloted prices, so I dove into the goods.

 ALL ABOUT THE SALE

I started with Mariam’s closet of course, she had worn so many wonderful pieces on her blog www.fashionbydaisy.com, and I decided to get a piece of that action.

Next I moved to shopdesire1709 and I leapt for joy because their high end pieces were all 2000 or less, as well as sunnies which were going for a thousand naira. Also, I got something for my sister and mamaa there.

I got some stuff for my brother who loves vintage shirts at Mayreejay’s rack. My sister who came with me also got some cool pieces there.

I didn’t get much time to talk and connect because my mamaa kept calling me home to cook 😒. Definitely going to do a haul post of the stuff I got from the sale soon.

It was a lovely experience and I would definitely be there again if it were to happen again.

MY OUTFIT

I wanted something loose that would allow me to run to grab the goodies if the situation called for it LOL.

These dope purple palazzo trousers are 1000 naira and I paired it with a sheer white top from mamaa’s closet. A pair of nude flats and my KStote bag. After all the noise over wanting one I didn’t  tell you guys it arrived, it did and I was pleased.

Related : My February 2017 Wishlist

I rounded the look up with my lucky purple ring and this cute little glass necklace.

I took this pictures later so my high puff was not popping like before because SHRINKAGE 😟

So what did you guys spend your weekend doing? Anything interesting?

Also what’s your take on my outfit?

5 Things I am Grateful for

Hi everyone, it feels great to be back, I was under the weather for the better half of last week.

I couldn’t even put out a post on Friday. I am feeling much better though and ready to tackle this week head on.

Sunday was the 50th day of 2017. It’s no big deal but I am grateful, especially after being sick. Which is why I decided to list the 5 things I am grateful for so far.

1. Sewing -I have always wanted to learn how to sew. It’s just a curiosity that has never left and I’m grateful that I am doing just that now.

I have been doing it for almost a month now and I am progressing quickly – not to toot my own horn- my instructor says so.

I have a dream that one day I won’t have to spend a lot of money on clothes. A dream that one day I will sew everything I want and my mama will be jealous 😈.

2. My Blog – How much love I have for my blog is often underestimated. I am the kind of person who overthinks every little thing and wonders ‘what will people think’ ?, ‘is it good enough’ or ‘am I good enough’ ?.

My blog exhausts me and sometimes I want to take a break but, that tiny smile at the corner of my mouth when I am writing a post or when I get a comment – it’s worth it.

The fact that I am still blogging is a testament to my growing up. Yes, I still panic and feel insecure about myself and the blog sometimes but Ada is getting there!

3. Repj360 – This is the name of my friends’ band (yes my friends are in a band, I am cool like that😎).

Seriously though, it’s easy to give up on your artistic dreams given the way our country regards creatives. It is okay to be a Doctor, Lawyer or Accountant (not that there’s anything wrong with these professions) ,people are always praying for God to help you.

Mention a mixtape however, and what you will hear is ‘this one is not serious’ or ‘you just wasted your parents money’.

These guys keep pushing through and I am really proud of them.  I wish I could support them more but I do too little (God help Me). They have 2 singles and a love mash up which are all wonderful but don’t take my word for it, go to their website and check them out for yourself.

4. My KStote bag – Anyone who reads my blog will know that I am a little a lot obsessed with this bag.

NO I am not being paid to advertise but I am super excited that it’s on its way FINALLY!!!! and I think I will do a style post on it soooooooon.

I absolutely love the inscription on it, it’s artsy and inspirational but not pretentious,  can’t wait to show you guys.

5. My Family – This may sound cliché but I don’t care. I love these people because in their own individual way each one of them has annoyed, inspired and loved me.

I’m grateful, for my DD who always asks about my blog even though he has no idea what it’s s about, for my mama who makes me laugh and who I fight with everyday, for CA who is my third pair of eyes and whose random suggestions are always great and manage to fuel my creativity, for EA who is my photographer and my proofreader (I don’t know what I will do when you guys go back to school) and finally for G.O. who should really show more interest in my blog 😒, but is my IG day 1 nigga.

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

What are you grateful for, even if you can only name one, I assure you it will go a long way. 

Let me know in the comments. 

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My First Blogging Failure and How I am Dealing with it.

This week kind of started on a bad note for me. I experienced my first major blogging failure. This is what happened:

I had the perfect post all planned out for the blog. All I needed to do was take some pictures this weekend and for several reasons, it fell through.

Even though I have always had some difficulty with pictures, I didn’t expect it to happen now. Why? I planned ahead and did everything right.

I was very disappointed because that would mean I’d have to move all my posts and my social media (especially instagram) around. This is because I tend to schedule and plan everything ahead.

I felt so depressed I said I wasn’t going to post anything this week. I thought after all how many people are reading my blog anyway,  nobody will know.

Then I thought “YOU WILL KNOW”

It’s true I would know and I would feel it even if no one else did. Several bloggers write about their struggles and the various ways they have encountered failure.

I thought ‘well I will handle it when my turn comes’,  but the thing is it’s hard, thats why it’s called a struggle. I felt crushed and just very ‘bleech’, I don’t even think that’s a word.

As I am typing this, I feel better, not great because, I mean I would still love for things to have gone smoothly.

I smiling a bit because I am blogging and it makes me happy.

 I am smiling a bit because I know I am thinking up ideas to make that post happen.

I am smiling a lot because I know that I am going to have a post up today.

I am smiling because in small victories like this, I reaffirm my dedication and will to achieve something extraordinary.

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So guys my advice to you – even though this is not my forte- is PUSH THROUGH. 

Bad and unexpected things are going to happen but if you just keep moving, it gets better.